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hiding brown sugar in the dishwasher
washing dishes in milk
sleeping in an outfit for the next day

Lizolet Vogt
Idril Stepp
Gruffudd Post
Algernon Simeon
Ade Copeland
Camila Earleen
Tamika Shook
Edwina Vertie
Hyun Sherrill
Aymer Hector
Raylene Bernadine
Sally Hildegard
Merrill Best
Adolph Cannon
Benjy Leonid
Nu Geri
Maynard Winters
Bobbi Brittanie
Bartlet Kraig
Ignaz Cy
Velvet Penney
Linn Klaus
Kamala Yuri
Eloise Modesta
Dunc Suvendu
Burk Exavier
Cammy Ryann
Currey Ignacio
Faustina Consuelo
Adela Engle

if you go to http://www.adambernales.com/overdue.htm

and click this:




you can buy the zine i mentioned here before

back in nice, tired.

i feel like shit inside qnd out; i wish i could say it's just because i'm a little sick the past few days but i really don't know what's wrong with me.

i should probably be taking ,ore away fro, this than i am or so is expressed to me regularly. i can never tell if nothing's chjanged or it's all changed co,pletely.

im in paris now staying with a friend of a friend leaving for ger,any soon. and not used to the french keyboard.

before i got on my plane, almost missing my plane, i hurried to fix up a zine i laid out years ago. don't really know why. i started look at some of the photos in chicago, brought them to canada even though i was only there for a couple days and saved xeroxing it for the morning of my flight out to nice. and i finally stapled it altogether today. i made a lot of changes, smaller than i imagined, only 18 images. it covers when i first started taking pictures pretty much. the chicago suburbs, driving/walking around all night, the time we picked up my grandma from detroit to bring her( i had no idea at the time how that would affect my life now), i was also working in the sears tower at the time looking out the windows day and night. looking back now i'm not sure why it was so important i finish it or why i never did but at least i dont have to worry about it anymore. unless i want to do a better version, i did actually mix up the order while xeroxing doublesided but nothing is ever quite right anyway.

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Finally picked up tickets, flying out of Toronto to Nice May 28th, wont be back until September 10th. Considering I was barely able to afford the ticket I'm not really sure how I'm going to make it overseas but I'm trying not to think about it too much. I'm hoping I can get enough money together just to buy some film so I'm not over there and unable to take any pictures, the above is the first picture I've taken with a camera in a month or two so I'm hoping to back to it. Though maybe I should just forget pictures altogether and learn to write or draw, or anything would probably be better.

I'm still not entirely sure where I'll be in Europe aside from Nice with family and hanging out with Mona in Romania. If there's anyone who would like to meet while I'm there feel free to say something, right now it looks like I'll be meeting with a couple different people.

it sounds depressing, the past few days i don't know what i'm waking up to. i don't know why i do what i do, i space through the entire day doing little but walk and while i'm walking at a point i wonder where else to go, or what else i could be doing, so i run nowhere and i wish i was being glib when i say that but i really am running nowhere in particular and for no reason. but i have been sleeping well, well, i've been sleeping earlier, and waking up earlier, and dreaming a lot the past week so actually it feels like i'm awake when i'm asleep because i'm not used to it, and they're all frenetic. an earthquake while sitting in a library last night with me sliding down a collapsed floor and the light turning pink and orange where i can't tell if i'm slipping to lava or if it's a bomb going off and i wake up feeling like i just went to bed. i feel lately like there's an answer in front of me that i'm not seeing, but i know i shouldn't be thinking about it so much. and i miss someone.

scraped scratched, nicked, and bitten by just about everything in this field